My Life in '04

The title to tonight’s blog was taken from a scrapbook I made for a psychology project. It’s dated December 16, 2004. Inside, it holds truths which remain constant today, those which have turned into untruths following time/experiences/growth, and also those which remain true though less prominent in my interpretation of the present. It’s worth reviewing. And updating.

5 1/2 years later – Past and present broken down:

  • 5 words used to describe me:
    • 2004
      • stubborn
      • confident
      • respectful
      • athletic
      • caring
    • 2010
      • traveled
      • excited
      • relaxed
      • funny
      • optimistic
  • I like that I am:
    • 2004
      • Passionate about the things I believe are right
      • Honest about my thoughts
      • Open-minded
    • 2010
      • Open to new opportunities
      • Comfortable in my own skin
      • Surrounded by good people
  • I need to learn to:
    • 2004
      • Organize my life
      • Hold my tongue
      • Let go of past hurts
    • 2010
      • Quit over analyzing
      • Organize my life
      • Make my own way in the world
  • I want to:
    • 2004
      • Stop allowing fear to paralyze me
      • Strengthen my faith level
    • 2010
      • Stop allowing fear to paralyze me
      • Always follow my heart
  • My top values are:
    • 2004
      • Faith
      • Respect
      • Family
      • Kindness
      • Trust
    • 2010
      • Faith
      • Respect
      • Family
      • Friendship
      • Growth
  • My talents:
    • 2004
      • Sports
      • Singing
    • 2010
      • Communicating
      • Forgiving
  • Tomorrow I would like to be:
    • 2004
      • More Responsible
      • Health Conscious
    • 2010
      • Further along with my paper
      • Aware of my daily blessings
  • Two deep concerns I have right now:
    • 2004
      • Relationship with [my boyfriend at the time]
      • College
    • 2010
      • Living situation
      • Career
  • Favorite quotation(s):
    • 2004
      • Play your game: Don’t focus about what anyone else thinks. Play for you. – my parents
    • 2010
      • Many are the plans in a man’s heart but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails. – Proverbs 19:21
      • Live in the now. Act spontaneously. Embrace the unknown. – self
  • If I were anyone else, I would be:
    • 2004
      • Rich and famous
    • 2010
      • Entirely disappointed
  • I am a(n):
    • 2004
      • Christian, daughter, friend, sister, grand-daughter, girlfriend, cousin, role model, counselor, niece, woman, writer, singer, artist, student, athlete, Taurus
    • 2010
      • Christian, daughter, sister, relative, friend, traveler, role model, mess, comedian, artist, disciple, lady, enigma, wanderer, listener, talker, learner
  • Two experiences that affected me in a personal way:
    • 2004
      • Soccer with Adam Danielczyk: We were his girls. He cared for us more than he cared about himself.
        • [ Side note: This is something that still pains my heart with joyful remembrances and always will. We were lucky to have him.]
      • Spring Hill: Strengthened faith life
    • 2010
      • Alzheimer’s
      • Heartbreak
  • My biggest fears:
    • 2004
      • Being forgotten
      • Growing up
    • 2010
      • Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? – Matthew 6:27 …
  • I would like to be remembered as a:
    • 2004
      • Role model
    • 2010
      • Role model
  • 10 experiences I would like to have:
    • 2004
      1. Own a bulldog named “Boomer”
      2. Live away [CHECK!]
      3. Marry
      4. Become a mom to little boys (a soccer mom)
      5. Study abroad in Europe [CHECK!]
      6. Decorate my own house
      7. Own a black minivan
      8. Become a recognized photographer
      9. Be an aunt
      10. Be a spoiling grandma
    • 2010
      1. Sky diving
      2. Camping weekend
      3. See a bald eagle in nature
      4. Live in Grand Rapids
      5. Live outside of Michigan
      6. Be published as an author
      7. Obtain a motorcycle license
      8. Run a marathon
      9. Learn to sew
      10. Road trip with friends
  • My favorite TV show:
    • 2004
      • Laguna Beach
    • 2010
      • Cougar Town
  • Favorite article of clothing:
    • 2004
      • Jeans
    • 2010
      • Scarves!
  • I see my sister as:
    • 2004
      • Beautiful
    • 2010
      • Strong
  • When I grow up I want to be:
    • 2004
      • A kid!
    • 2010
      • A kid! 😉
  • I get most frustrated when:
    • 2004
      • I don’t succeed immediately
    • 2010
      • I feel embarrassed

Those are the highlights documenting how I’ve changed and how I’ve remained the same. It’s an interesting project to keep around. I suggest you start one today and pick it back up in a few years. You might be surprised/saddened/impressed/embarrassed at the things contained.

For me, 2004 points out my youth (as I would expect) but also my crippling inclination to project into the future past any predictable cues – and with goals that are unachievable on my own. Hopefully 2010 feels a bit more independent and a bit more present. It ought to. It’s now.

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