As of late, I have begun to ask myself what it means to have faith. Not just faith but the kind of faith that moves mountains. If I have faith as small as a mustard seed, I can do that – move mountains, right? But just what exactly does that mean? And here’s another thing; I pray that the Lord’s will be done. Now if I pray that the Lord’s will be done and not that x be the outcome of y, am I trusting in God’s will or am I giving my faith a huge target so that in the end, I am able to say “See, that’s faith!” I’m not one to test God. None of us are. And yet if I don’t have faith to believe that x be so, is that faith? Do you see my consternation? It gets confusing.
I’ve been praying a lot lately. Some days, I don’t focus on the problem or the solution and I pray for peace. Some days, I pray for God’s will to be done. I pray to see God’s purpose instead of my plans. Some days I pray for what I want to see. Some days, I pray and believe that x will be the outcome of y. And then I pray for peace.
I go in circles, it seems.
How do you pray?