It’s that time of year again; it’s time to reflect on 2010 and begin planning for 2011, to think up what resolutions I will drop and which I will keep and to evaluate which have already been completed. The end of the year is always a time of reflection and this year, I have much to reflect upon.
I started this blog back in March of this year and I have to say, in it is captured the greatest growth that one short season has ever given me. If you have stuck with me since then, you have noted highs and some lows, challenges, questions, growth, setbacks, tears and fears, and countless mentions of love or laughter. 2010 has been quite the year. So in honor of my “Season of Growth,” I’m choosing to complete a simple questionnaire:
1. What was the single best thing that happened this past year?
- I chose to grow positively from my experiences and in doing so, I opened doors for me that I would not have expected to open. I learned to take risks. I learned to step outside of my comfort zone and into given situations which then became a new comfort zone once entered. I learned to forgive and to live refusing to hold certain grudges. I allowed myself to be broken down and rebuilt. I prayed. I focused on my present situation only. I laughed a ton. And I lived.
2. What was the single most challenging thing that happened?
I more-so-gracefully-than-ungracefully made it to the other side of unpredicted heartbreak. I spent every day in prayer for peace and for God’s plan to be shown to me. I stayed up all hours of the night because my dreams were the only things I couldn’t control and I worked far too many hours for distraction. I cried, mostly alone, every day and every night until I could not cry anymore. And I kept a smile on my face so that others would not allow me to despair in public or judge me for my burden.
3. What was an unexpected joy this past year?
- Travel and the adventure found therein. I flew to Jamaica with a friend and jumped from a (very small) cliff into the water below before getting stuck in a taxi cab ride with a prostitute. I bought a ticket to Denver, Colorado to see an old friend and embarked on my first solo plane flight; once there, we went white water rafting. I traveled to my first-ever weekend concert in Twin Lakes, Wisconsin with one of my best friends to trudge through mud and dance until my legs gave out. I returned to Colorado to see dear friends and we spent a night up camping in the mountains. Every trip taught me something new and all of them taught me a little more about adventure, peace, feeling “home” on the road, and about myself.
4. What was an unexpected obstacle?
- Fear of succeeding. I allowed myself to tackle adventure after adventure but often found myself holding back from the practical adventures or obstacles in life. I can jump out of a plane but I have not figured out how to give more to my job or take care of car troubles or forego procrastination.
5. Pick three words to describe 2010.
6. Pick three words your spouse would use to describe your 2010 (don’t ask them; guess based on how you think your spouse sees you).
I do not have a spouse, but if I were to choose three words they would be:
7. Pick three words your spouse would use to describe their 2010 (again, without asking).
I haven’t a spouse and there is not much I know about this particular 2010. But to guess:
8. What were the best books you read this year?
9. With whom were your most valuable relationships?
- My aunt and uncle
- My parents
- My sister
- And my two dearest girlfriends who encouraged me throughout the year
10. What was your biggest personal change from January to December of this past year?
- I learned what it is to “Be Megan.”
11. In what way(s) did you grow emotionally?
- I refused to nurse grudges.
- I became the sole determinant of my attitude.
12. In what way(s) did you grow spiritually?
- I learned to seek God in every day and listen to his direction with a little more clarity.
- I tried to live a life of grace and forgiveness as I was taught.
13. In what way(s) did you grow physically?
- A gained a considerable amount of weight and jumped up a pant-size. I’m still battling the effects of that. It’s been a stressful year!
14. In what way(s) did you grow in your relationships with others?
- I focused more on preserving or growing those relationships that mean so much to me. Some of them grew, some of them did not, but my focus shifted more from myself to the mutual nature of my relationships. I accepted the reality of one relationship and found peace; I am now finding forgiveness and truth and honesty.
15. What was the most enjoyable area of managing your home?
- Everything, from choosing which cupboard to put the coffee mugs to water the Christmas tree. There is something absolutely joy-inspiring in having your own home.
16. What was your most challenging area of home management?
- Bills, bills, bills. And giving up excuses about not calling maintenance or not being able to kill that spider.
17. What was your single biggest time waster in your life this past year?
- Facebook without a doubt. It has served as my addiction.
18. What was the best way you used your time this past year?
- My most beneficial use of time was discovering the things I like and don’t like, the things I want to change and those I do not want to change. Figuring out me.
19. What was the biggest thing you learned this past year?
- I am stronger than my circumstances (though with the help of God and friends).
20. Create a phrase or statement that describes 2010 for you.
As if you couldn’t guess…
- Enjoy living in the now; act spontaneously; embrace the unknown.